I cried today

I cried today
I cried today, I can’t tell you why
This pain that I bare i’ll have till I die
My eyes they sting, my vision is a blur
Oh what I’d give to find an eternal cure
At night I think how is this fair
I feel I’m here only because I’m told that they care
But when I’m down I feel so alone
Even in this house, I think it’s called home
And when the night falls, I lay in my bed,
With no one beside me, just the thoughts in my head
I will for a day that that this torture would end,
That I would wake and not have to pretend
My past it still haunts me, my present is the same,
What future can I have, all I do seems in vain
But i’ll pick myself up, i’ll continue this role
these thoughts won’t define me,
i’ll play the starring role