First Time Love

For the first time in my dismal life
I feel love flow in my heart
the same heart once thought cold and lifeless
fills with glorious joy and happiness
because of a woman
whose spirit is full of passion
her eyes that shine like sapphire stars
filled with warmth and beauty
a smile that brings happiness to my sad existence
I have never known love until now
because of the way she touched my heart
took hold of my depressed soul
and showed me the beauty of life’s wonders
everything that I thought impossible
all seems to be within my grasp
I see everything in a new light
because of something I thought unworthy to feel
to feel love’s tender kiss
and I bask in its beauty so
because of the feelings of a woman
whom I would love now and ’til
my heart beats its final note to life’s great song

I’m sorry

I’m sorry for everything you’ve been through
It must’ve been very hard on you
I’m sorry for all that’s been said and done
I was the moon, you were the sun
I’m sorry for not making everything right
But the situation I was in, was very tight
I’m sorry for not lending you a hand
If only I could be a better friend
I’m sorry if it seemed like I didn’t care
Lucky for you, your special- someone was there
I’m sorry for breaking your heart
For forgiveness, where do I start?

I’m Hiding Deep Inside

Can no one see this smile I’m faking,
See how, inside, I’m constantly shaking?
These people all claim they know me well,
Yet no one can see through my crumbling shell?

“I’m fine”, I whisper, my sadness unknown,
They leave me to deal with this anguish alone.
I’ve hidden behind this wall most of my life,
I’ve managed so far, I’ve dealt with my strife.

Watching as, slowly, my blood leaks away,
It helps to keep life’s true horrors at bay.
I pull down my sleeve to cover my hurt,
For approaching footsteps, I’m on the alert.

I guess my pretense is just all too real,
No one has to know of the pain that I feel.
The real me inside, where no one can see,
I can fool everyone else, why can’t I fool me?

The Girl In The Mirror

I told the girl in the mirror
I didn’t like her hair
I asked the girl in the mirror
Why she was always there
I reminded the girl in the mirror
Not to look at me that way
I asked the girl in the mirror
Why she never had anything to say

The girl in the mirror
Well she didn’t like that
The girl in the mirror
upon her chair she sat
Now the girl in the mirror
Is no longer my best friend
Some times I wonder if
I should put her to an end

Alone – Sad English Poems

I am alone,
so very alone

I hurt,
so very bad

I am ignored,
just thrown aside

I am security,
for others to have

I am lonely,
there is no one close,
no one sees the pain

I cry,
hope is gone

I am alone,
and no one knows

Corrupted Love – Love Poems

A warm sensation fills my body
My heart races with every touch
The softness of your voice soothes
My soul
As I lay there hoping the moment
Will never end
Calling out for you
Praying that you’ll never let me go
The sensation so strong
I can no longer feel my body
Slowly I fade in and out of reality
In an instant the warm sensation
Fades away
My heart empty
My soul torn apart
Lying there; wondering where I went
Wrong
Calling out for you, only to find
there is no answer
My mind invaded with thoughts
So cruel and unrefined
The sensation of fear of what’s to come
Slowly the reality over powering
The lust and fantasy
Leaving me empty
Confused on how to think or feel
The loneliness I feel
So wretched and compelled
Betrayal to myself
Revealing the terrors of my love

You Meant So Much – Sad Poems

You meant so much to all of us
You were special and that’s no lie
You brightened up the darkest day
And the cloudiest sky

Your smile alone warmed hearts
Your laugh was like music to hear
I would give absolutely anything
To have you well and standing near

Not a second passes
When you’re not on our minds
Your love we will never forget
The hurt will ease in time

Many tears I have seen and cried
They have all poured out like rain
I know that you are happy now
And no longer in any pain